guess i am back on writing the last time i wrote was when my son was 2 months mashallah now he is 9 months old and though i don't like to hand him over to someone for even a minute or two i really do wish i get a me time for myself but now that he he is grown up plays, eat, sleep. I started a new thing which i always wanted to making jewelry and headband and etc. I did before marriage but never got the right response but this time really am going to do it get the response if they like it or hey i have time why should i sit ideal i should do something and not let my brain go to rust.
I have noticed it that the first time i went to the shop to buy some stuff even the sales guy was making weird expressions as i dont know anything well in truth i really didn't know what i was doing i just took a few things went home and laid them down in  front of me and i was like a really wasted my good money then , angry at myself at what i did and think they are right it is a foolish hobby so i just packed it up stashed it in the back of my wardrobe never to be seen again.
After i few months i needed some more space in my wardrobe i took out time to clean up my wardrobe and i found my stuff which i thought i would never see again and i did see. Looking at it i thought why not open it and see what i really bought after opening and matching thing i thought i didn't really wasted my money i was wrong. Well at that time i was under negative thoughts of other and myself.
and now i am glad that i made 4 bracelets, 2 ribbon wrapped headbands, 3 crochet headbands, mini coin pouch key-chain and i am really proud of myself.
After making it i showed to few people 2 were it is really beautiful and the rest why make this u have a son why make these headband make it when u have a girl these typical people really piss me off  but what can u do u either smile back at them or look at them rudely i go for the smile back.
i will inshallah continue it no matter what anyone say

So the winter season is soon to come to it end but as my son is born in the winter season And very small to enjoy those sweet wintery breeze at night and having yummy cold coffee yes the idea of having cold coffee in winter season rather than hot. Alot of people make face when hear it but hey I like to enjoy winter season like that. But now everything has changed looks like what people say that after having a kid everything changes the whole routine well I I

2011

Well here i am blogging my first blog.though i am not sure what to write and how to write but am still writing.

Well it is 17, month February year 2012 now that i look back at 2011 wondering and amazed at how time really flies a whole year just gone by like that and so much has happened in 2011 looking back i sometimes find it hard to believe that i got married in the month of January then went to my perfect honeymoon in the month of march and April and again in august went for umrah and i just cant believe it that i went for umrah  without my mom but with my mom in-law with 5 months pregnant.I had my doubts before going that will i be able to do it and on top of  it was the month of ramazan and with our hotel too being far from the mosque but thank you God with U making every step of mine easy i couldn't have done it on my own then after I remember how my pregnancy days became slower and slower every day and I was OOh when will this due date be coming and Finally just two weeks before the due I went to my doc's clinic for check up she started to scold me after seeing my ultrasound as to why didn't u come sooner are u crazy and i was just stare at her face and i was like 'why what happened'.Well she checked me up and then told me to rush to the hospital.Well on the way to the hospital I was confused and worried all at the same time at what is happening and what will happen but everything turned out to be just fine though i was in pain for 12hr and again in pain for 12 more hr and when normal delivery was not possible had to have c-section and after that too in pain but much less then the pain i was having before the delivery and finally on Wednesday 2:25 am 14 December Allah gifted me the most beautiful baby boy ever and when he was shown to me i had my doubts at that time that is that my baby the doc is showing really is that mine?? Wow it is mine.Now that he is two months old after changing his dirty diapers (which is really gross but i enjoy doing every single thing of  his like changing diapers,massaging,giving him a bath,etc,etc..)and after that i just hold him up and just look into his eyes and lol! again have doubts is he really mine how can he really be my son? even though i am changing his most dirty which is supposed to make me realise that Yes forgodsakes he is really your son and on 20 December i turned 20 and the year 2011 soon came to an end.And look how time flies  that i got married in 2011 and also became a mother of a beautiful baby.

Well now that 2011 has passed I can say that it was a really a great year a top no. on the list of great years well for now can't wait to see what this year brings for me well for now these two months have been great and only the days of these months not the nights as my darling son really loves to wake up in the nights.