guess i am back on writing the last time i wrote was when my son was 2 months mashallah now he is 9 months old and though i don't like to hand him over to someone for even a minute or two i really do wish i get a me time for myself but now that he he is grown up plays, eat, sleep. I started a new thing which i always wanted to making jewelry and headband and etc. I did before marriage but never got the right response but this time really am going to do it get the response if they like it or hey i have time why should i sit ideal i should do something and not let my brain go to rust.
I have noticed it that the first time i went to the shop to buy some stuff even the sales guy was making weird expressions as i dont know anything well in truth i really didn't know what i was doing i just took a few things went home and laid them down in  front of me and i was like a really wasted my good money then , angry at myself at what i did and think they are right it is a foolish hobby so i just packed it up stashed it in the back of my wardrobe never to be seen again.
After i few months i needed some more space in my wardrobe i took out time to clean up my wardrobe and i found my stuff which i thought i would never see again and i did see. Looking at it i thought why not open it and see what i really bought after opening and matching thing i thought i didn't really wasted my money i was wrong. Well at that time i was under negative thoughts of other and myself.
and now i am glad that i made 4 bracelets, 2 ribbon wrapped headbands, 3 crochet headbands, mini coin pouch key-chain and i am really proud of myself.
After making it i showed to few people 2 were it is really beautiful and the rest why make this u have a son why make these headband make it when u have a girl these typical people really piss me off  but what can u do u either smile back at them or look at them rudely i go for the smile back.
i will inshallah continue it no matter what anyone say